Thinking, Thinking, Thinking

On several different occasions, I said to myself, "I am going to practice silence today." Only to wake up and immediately start talking. I mean goodness, who knew a person could talk so much. But I've been having really strange dreams this week so I really wanted to get inside my head and analyze.

I don't remember all of the one from last night, but one man in particular had a hit out on me. I don't know how much the people were getting paid, but they were very persistent. The wife of the person who paid for the hit let me know when and where the hit was taking place. So I was able to escape 2 or 3 times. This dream had my anxiety up a few notches. It wasn't as bad as some of the other dreams, but goodness who wants to be shot at with machine guns while trying to rest. The craziest thing about it was the wife made it seem like the man did this on a regular basis. LOL, that is funny to me now. She knew his exact M-O.

Today, I thought about being silent and went against it. Then I started to read another book and silence fell upon me. It is so peaceful. My stress levels have dropped a few meters. I can think clearly. Everything I have been trying to work out in my head just seems so easy.

Anne LeClaire, the author of the book, Listening Below the Noise, suggests making some of your daily chores into moments of silence. Take it as a time to reflect. I began to think about my Granny.

In particular, I thought about her sitting in the kitchen making potato salad.(I am craving hers right now!) Many people just cook and peel the potatoes, add the seasonings, and everything else. My granny's process is a little more methodical. It's a production- boil the potatoes; boil the eggs; peel the potatoes; peel the eggs; remove the yolk from the eggs; dice the potatoes, onions, celery and egg whites into small squares; add the relish,mustard, and secret ingredients. She would then taste it, correct the flavor, add mayo, and finish off the salad in a nice bowl with pretty garnish.

All the while she's silent. She rarely talked while cooking. She seems so focused and intent on the food. I never thought, until now, that she could have been doing some serious thinking, rationalizing, and meditating. She is always so calm, cool, and collected you wouldn't think she had a worry in the world.

With my anxiety level lower, I am a better girlfriend. I am a better friend. I am a better business partner. I am a better person- period. I thought this "silence" would be a one time or unscheduled thing. I am beginning to thing otherwise. I need to do this. I feel centered, focused, refreshed-- and it's only been a couple of hours.

If Money Is No Object

I have the perfect gift website for you all. Gifts.com, I mean it is a gem. I absolutely adore it! I mean really. You can browse by age, sex, interests and they even have a gifts personality quiz. You answer a few questions and voila, up pop at least 50 gift ideas. And they were good gifts too! I can actually say, everything that came up on my list (Classic Achiever), I absolutely adored. No more fashion jewelry hanging organizers from Dollar Tree for me. (Yes I actually got that one year.)

So here are my top 3 things from that website that I would absolutely love to have:

Stocks: A Share of Coach? It’s less than a $100, quick delivery, and it comes in a niiiice frame. No? I’ll take a share of Hershey or even Krispey Kreme. Start my investment portfolio off right!

Monogrammed umbrella: my initials are TNB, I like Edwardian Script font. I’m not sure if that is available, but something similar is acceptable. My umbrellas always break or get lost somewhere in umbrella land. I promise this one won’t get broken or lost. I will take really good care of it.

Wine Club of the Month: I am a beginner, but this is something I will really appreciate! A nice Riesling anyone?

A girl can dream can't she?!

Cross-posted at Tamara Nichelle 12/8/08