I haven't gone into talking about myself much lately because there isn't much to say. 30 was a year of discovery and boy have I learned a lot. But there was just stuff I learned...nothing needing analysis or critique. That leads me to my mom...our relationship is so much better now. Today she is flying back home from a Republican Women's Conference and she sent me a text from the airport. Near the end of the conversation I told her to have fun and you know...those types of pleasentries. She was like I am on my way home. I said I know...you can have fun and enjoy the moment anywhere. Then she called me deep. I could imagine her face and expression as she is sitting at the airport ...tired... after a long week of hobnobbing and schmoozing and I am telling her to have MORE fun. I cracked up laughing. I remembered something I was told -- Enjoy the moment.
Sometimes we get so caught up on completing a task...we forget to enjoy the task.
If you like sewing, take pleasure in threading that needle-- it is the start of a new project-- a new beginning.
If you like writing, don't get caught up in the completion of the story...enjoy the writing. Enjoy the creative process. Enjoy Life! God put us here to get as much pleasure as possible! How good can you stand it?
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Sunday, March 14, 2010
Friday, June 12, 2009
Thinking, Thinking, Thinking
On several different occasions, I said to myself, "I am going to practice silence today." Only to wake up and immediately start talking. I mean goodness, who knew a person could talk so much. But I've been having really strange dreams this week so I really wanted to get inside my head and analyze.
I don't remember all of the one from last night, but one man in particular had a hit out on me. I don't know how much the people were getting paid, but they were very persistent. The wife of the person who paid for the hit let me know when and where the hit was taking place. So I was able to escape 2 or 3 times. This dream had my anxiety up a few notches. It wasn't as bad as some of the other dreams, but goodness who wants to be shot at with machine guns while trying to rest. The craziest thing about it was the wife made it seem like the man did this on a regular basis. LOL, that is funny to me now. She knew his exact M-O.
Today, I thought about being silent and went against it. Then I started to read another book and silence fell upon me. It is so peaceful. My stress levels have dropped a few meters. I can think clearly. Everything I have been trying to work out in my head just seems so easy.
Anne LeClaire, the author of the book, Listening Below the Noise, suggests making some of your daily chores into moments of silence. Take it as a time to reflect. I began to think about my Granny.
In particular, I thought about her sitting in the kitchen making potato salad.(I am craving hers right now!) Many people just cook and peel the potatoes, add the seasonings, and everything else. My granny's process is a little more methodical. It's a production- boil the potatoes; boil the eggs; peel the potatoes; peel the eggs; remove the yolk from the eggs; dice the potatoes, onions, celery and egg whites into small squares; add the relish,mustard, and secret ingredients. She would then taste it, correct the flavor, add mayo, and finish off the salad in a nice bowl with pretty garnish.
All the while she's silent. She rarely talked while cooking. She seems so focused and intent on the food. I never thought, until now, that she could have been doing some serious thinking, rationalizing, and meditating. She is always so calm, cool, and collected you wouldn't think she had a worry in the world.
With my anxiety level lower, I am a better girlfriend. I am a better friend. I am a better business partner. I am a better person- period. I thought this "silence" would be a one time or unscheduled thing. I am beginning to thing otherwise. I need to do this. I feel centered, focused, refreshed-- and it's only been a couple of hours.
I don't remember all of the one from last night, but one man in particular had a hit out on me. I don't know how much the people were getting paid, but they were very persistent. The wife of the person who paid for the hit let me know when and where the hit was taking place. So I was able to escape 2 or 3 times. This dream had my anxiety up a few notches. It wasn't as bad as some of the other dreams, but goodness who wants to be shot at with machine guns while trying to rest. The craziest thing about it was the wife made it seem like the man did this on a regular basis. LOL, that is funny to me now. She knew his exact M-O.
Today, I thought about being silent and went against it. Then I started to read another book and silence fell upon me. It is so peaceful. My stress levels have dropped a few meters. I can think clearly. Everything I have been trying to work out in my head just seems so easy.
Anne LeClaire, the author of the book, Listening Below the Noise, suggests making some of your daily chores into moments of silence. Take it as a time to reflect. I began to think about my Granny.
In particular, I thought about her sitting in the kitchen making potato salad.(I am craving hers right now!) Many people just cook and peel the potatoes, add the seasonings, and everything else. My granny's process is a little more methodical. It's a production- boil the potatoes; boil the eggs; peel the potatoes; peel the eggs; remove the yolk from the eggs; dice the potatoes, onions, celery and egg whites into small squares; add the relish,mustard, and secret ingredients. She would then taste it, correct the flavor, add mayo, and finish off the salad in a nice bowl with pretty garnish.
All the while she's silent. She rarely talked while cooking. She seems so focused and intent on the food. I never thought, until now, that she could have been doing some serious thinking, rationalizing, and meditating. She is always so calm, cool, and collected you wouldn't think she had a worry in the world.
With my anxiety level lower, I am a better girlfriend. I am a better friend. I am a better business partner. I am a better person- period. I thought this "silence" would be a one time or unscheduled thing. I am beginning to thing otherwise. I need to do this. I feel centered, focused, refreshed-- and it's only been a couple of hours.
Monday, March 2, 2009
Lessons Learned 2008-2009
Time is a great buffer. I have learned more lessons now than even the ones I thought I had learned at the beginning of the year. Here they are:
1. A dream won't come true if you don't a) really want it; b) believe it will come true; and c) put in the work to make it happen.
2. I write down my hopes, wishes, and desires. I took a look back over the last year and realized that it was a whole bunch of stuff that I thought I wanted that I could totally care less about.
For instance, I thought I wanted to keep my car for the rest of my life. It was going to be that junker that I drove anywhere I could. I put way too much money into trying to keep it running; all the while planning the next car I would buy. That was a contradiction. I should have let the car go a long time ago and bought the one I really wanted.
3. I also learned that it is totally okay to go against the norm. You would think I learned this lesson a long time ago but clearly I didn't. I spent a lot of time, money, and energy looking for a traditional job. And then God blesses me with a non-traditional job when that's what I wanted all along. LOL. So funny.
And finally I learned that God and the universe will provide all of my true wants, needs, and desires-the ones that I don't contradict myself on. And one that won't make much sense because there is so much that is behind it, but I don't have to control anything but my mind.
1. A dream won't come true if you don't a) really want it; b) believe it will come true; and c) put in the work to make it happen.
2. I write down my hopes, wishes, and desires. I took a look back over the last year and realized that it was a whole bunch of stuff that I thought I wanted that I could totally care less about.
For instance, I thought I wanted to keep my car for the rest of my life. It was going to be that junker that I drove anywhere I could. I put way too much money into trying to keep it running; all the while planning the next car I would buy. That was a contradiction. I should have let the car go a long time ago and bought the one I really wanted.
3. I also learned that it is totally okay to go against the norm. You would think I learned this lesson a long time ago but clearly I didn't. I spent a lot of time, money, and energy looking for a traditional job. And then God blesses me with a non-traditional job when that's what I wanted all along. LOL. So funny.
And finally I learned that God and the universe will provide all of my true wants, needs, and desires-the ones that I don't contradict myself on. And one that won't make much sense because there is so much that is behind it, but I don't have to control anything but my mind.
Thursday, February 12, 2009
Detox Day!
I woke up late this morning. My shift at work starts at 9:30am. I woke up at 9:37am. Grant it, all I have to do is roll out of bed and to the computer, but this was not how I wanted to start my day. Once at the computer, it literally took me almost 2 hours to get logged in and ready to work. Errors were popping up, the screen kept freezing, and the essays would not download. (I critique essays and research papers.)
Then I realized, I had not been "grateful" or "feeling good". I need to change the way I am thinking. Who cares if I was tired. I shouldn't have stayed up so late. I should have taken that ibuprofen earlier in the night. I should have...you get the picture. Ultimately, I probably just wanted an excuse to not go to work. How lame is that?
I got my tax refund already, so all of my money worries are gone! I should be GRATEFUL beyond measure. Even though I don't have a car anymore, I live in a centrally located neighborhood and have good friends who look out for us.
But I also realized I have been taking in a large amount of garbage--ie negative crap. I have been watching the depressing ass news everyday. Yeah that's over with. If I wanted to be depressed, I would just go back to looking for a 9 to 5 job. I have been watching those court tv shows and gossip shows like tmz. Yeah enough of that too. Plus there are probably some residual feelings of contempt for people I argued with last week. Gotta get that out of my head!
After I get off work today, I plan on going into detox mode. How? LAUGHING MY A** OFF! Anything on you tube that is funny, I'll be watching it. I am going to put in my favorite movies: Rat Race and Last Holiday. Then I will blast the good music for the rest of the evening; whilst I write, sing, and dance. Anything that makes me feel good, I will be DOING! ;-) I should probably add some peanut butter and chocolate somewhere in this evening.
Then I realized, I had not been "grateful" or "feeling good". I need to change the way I am thinking. Who cares if I was tired. I shouldn't have stayed up so late. I should have taken that ibuprofen earlier in the night. I should have...you get the picture. Ultimately, I probably just wanted an excuse to not go to work. How lame is that?
I got my tax refund already, so all of my money worries are gone! I should be GRATEFUL beyond measure. Even though I don't have a car anymore, I live in a centrally located neighborhood and have good friends who look out for us.
But I also realized I have been taking in a large amount of garbage--ie negative crap. I have been watching the depressing ass news everyday. Yeah that's over with. If I wanted to be depressed, I would just go back to looking for a 9 to 5 job. I have been watching those court tv shows and gossip shows like tmz. Yeah enough of that too. Plus there are probably some residual feelings of contempt for people I argued with last week. Gotta get that out of my head!
After I get off work today, I plan on going into detox mode. How? LAUGHING MY A** OFF! Anything on you tube that is funny, I'll be watching it. I am going to put in my favorite movies: Rat Race and Last Holiday. Then I will blast the good music for the rest of the evening; whilst I write, sing, and dance. Anything that makes me feel good, I will be DOING! ;-) I should probably add some peanut butter and chocolate somewhere in this evening.
Saturday, November 29, 2008
I'm so grateful...
that I have you all to talk too. I mean my life has changed so much in the last few days.
that Thanksgiving dinner was better than expected. I had some banging sweet potatoe pie...and I am still full. I don't really need to eat for the next few days. Seriously.
that unexpected miracles keep happening. I am just going with the flow of this prosperity and abundance. I am so so grateful...I will blog about these as they develop further.
that I have great friends, great family, and serve a great God.
that it has been warm for the last few days. No super duper cold for the holiday...Yeah!
that I have dreams...that no one can take from me, that I know I will accomplish.
that Thanksgiving dinner was better than expected. I had some banging sweet potatoe pie...and I am still full. I don't really need to eat for the next few days. Seriously.
that unexpected miracles keep happening. I am just going with the flow of this prosperity and abundance. I am so so grateful...I will blog about these as they develop further.
that I have great friends, great family, and serve a great God.
that it has been warm for the last few days. No super duper cold for the holiday...Yeah!
that I have dreams...that no one can take from me, that I know I will accomplish.
Monday, November 24, 2008
I gotta get this off my chest.....
I feel like I have dealt with this stuff already, but the fact that it is resurfacing tells me that I have not dealt with it as efficiently as first thought.
Today, on Tyra she talked to two women who decided it was best for them to find out how their families and friends thought about them and then they had a separate Truth Panel who essentially told it like it was without regards to feelings. The kicker was that the women were behind a two way mirror listening to everything.
One of the girls was really just depressed. I mean I could see that from jump. Tyra in her big sister way asks her when all of this started. She says when she lost her job (i can relate)...she was fired (I was too)...due to her performance ( mine was for? i could've been fired for being late to work everyday, but they said insubordination), from a job she absolutely loved ( i liked it a lot, i hated my supervisors). There is a lot here...so just bear with me a few.
At the same time I was in graduate school for a totally different field, working with lesbian health none the less. My mom came for graduation and like my life started to unravel from there. We got into a huge argument...I mean like atomic bomb huge. I stopped talking to her.
Work got worse after I got my degree, I guess I was too much now that I had a masters degree. Dare I ask for a raise (I didn't) or a different position (I didn't) or actually try to use my degree on the side (I didn't)-- but I could've. Maybe I did change. I don't know. I know I was trying to do my best but the higher ups were just so unsupportive. I asked for help (they used that against me). Shortly after that, I was fired.
Now this threw my world into a loop. I went from being financially secure to being....what...???? I wasn't talking to my momma. There was nothing I could do to get my job back. Everything I was told to do just made the situation worse and backfired. After it was all said and done I realized that my position was never secure. I was going to be eliminated one way or the other--regardless of my actions. That hurt. All of the energy, time, and money spent -- for what?
I collected unemployment for awhile...interviewed for a few positions most unsuccessfully. I started thinking about this looking at sister girl on Tyra. Her family was saying all of this awful stuff about her, but never to her face. And all of her actions stemmed from her being seriously depressed. They were more concerned about their feelings then about her actual health. Her depression was obvious. She drank a lot, she gained a lot of weight, her behavior was uncharacteristic of her.
My depression wasn't as visible. I kept a smile on my face, got dressed, was engaged with society. But sometimes my decisions didn't seem to be the best decisions...my plan didn't turn out so well. That made me think, my family is probably saying stuff about me as well, everyone always has something to say. Especially about where I should be applying for jobs. I had my life all mapped out before. I imagined retiring from that old job. I could see it, but apparently God has other plans. Every now and then someone will tell me to go work at Target or something like that...or come home. For goodness sakes, what makes people think I haven't applied at Target? I can't stand when people say that as if everyone gets hired in retail or fast food...they don't!
Since then I have worked in 2 unfulfilling jobs that I was damn near fired from...the 1st, I just wasn't given any more hours, the 2nd I wasn't good at manipulating people so I had to go(at least that's what my boss said damn near everyday.) I won't be making that mistake again. Talk about miserable. It's not fun. It doesn't feel good.
I have so much that I want out of life. I am rebounding, making stuff happen, am grateful for the little things, and moving forward. That's why you see some gratitude posts every now and then. I want to feel like that all of the time. I can go back and read them and I feel happy all over again. The law of attraction...I remember when whatever I wanted, I got...I spoke it into existence. I just had a negativity overload the past few years...and I am in detox mode right now. People don't understand that what they say to people effects them in unseen ways. You could say it in passing and it is stuck on them for a whole day or even a year. So practice positive speaking and positive thinking...to yourself and to others.
Now my goals in life are a little different and in the words of abg "telling all my business" has been my first step in therapy. I really need a counselor.
Today, on Tyra she talked to two women who decided it was best for them to find out how their families and friends thought about them and then they had a separate Truth Panel who essentially told it like it was without regards to feelings. The kicker was that the women were behind a two way mirror listening to everything.
One of the girls was really just depressed. I mean I could see that from jump. Tyra in her big sister way asks her when all of this started. She says when she lost her job (i can relate)...she was fired (I was too)...due to her performance ( mine was for? i could've been fired for being late to work everyday, but they said insubordination), from a job she absolutely loved ( i liked it a lot, i hated my supervisors). There is a lot here...so just bear with me a few.
At the same time I was in graduate school for a totally different field, working with lesbian health none the less. My mom came for graduation and like my life started to unravel from there. We got into a huge argument...I mean like atomic bomb huge. I stopped talking to her.
Work got worse after I got my degree, I guess I was too much now that I had a masters degree. Dare I ask for a raise (I didn't) or a different position (I didn't) or actually try to use my degree on the side (I didn't)-- but I could've. Maybe I did change. I don't know. I know I was trying to do my best but the higher ups were just so unsupportive. I asked for help (they used that against me). Shortly after that, I was fired.
Now this threw my world into a loop. I went from being financially secure to being....what...???? I wasn't talking to my momma. There was nothing I could do to get my job back. Everything I was told to do just made the situation worse and backfired. After it was all said and done I realized that my position was never secure. I was going to be eliminated one way or the other--regardless of my actions. That hurt. All of the energy, time, and money spent -- for what?
I collected unemployment for awhile...interviewed for a few positions most unsuccessfully. I started thinking about this looking at sister girl on Tyra. Her family was saying all of this awful stuff about her, but never to her face. And all of her actions stemmed from her being seriously depressed. They were more concerned about their feelings then about her actual health. Her depression was obvious. She drank a lot, she gained a lot of weight, her behavior was uncharacteristic of her.
My depression wasn't as visible. I kept a smile on my face, got dressed, was engaged with society. But sometimes my decisions didn't seem to be the best decisions...my plan didn't turn out so well. That made me think, my family is probably saying stuff about me as well, everyone always has something to say. Especially about where I should be applying for jobs. I had my life all mapped out before. I imagined retiring from that old job. I could see it, but apparently God has other plans. Every now and then someone will tell me to go work at Target or something like that...or come home. For goodness sakes, what makes people think I haven't applied at Target? I can't stand when people say that as if everyone gets hired in retail or fast food...they don't!
Since then I have worked in 2 unfulfilling jobs that I was damn near fired from...the 1st, I just wasn't given any more hours, the 2nd I wasn't good at manipulating people so I had to go(at least that's what my boss said damn near everyday.) I won't be making that mistake again. Talk about miserable. It's not fun. It doesn't feel good.
I have so much that I want out of life. I am rebounding, making stuff happen, am grateful for the little things, and moving forward. That's why you see some gratitude posts every now and then. I want to feel like that all of the time. I can go back and read them and I feel happy all over again. The law of attraction...I remember when whatever I wanted, I got...I spoke it into existence. I just had a negativity overload the past few years...and I am in detox mode right now. People don't understand that what they say to people effects them in unseen ways. You could say it in passing and it is stuck on them for a whole day or even a year. So practice positive speaking and positive thinking...to yourself and to others.
Now my goals in life are a little different and in the words of abg "telling all my business" has been my first step in therapy. I really need a counselor.
Saturday, November 22, 2008
I'm Chillaxin....
I'm so glad that:
Gas prices are down. I can put $10 in and it's more than a quarter of a tank.
I made some money this weekend.
I met some great people.
My mom and I are really getting along. I mean, even talking about politics has been a breeze...just not sexuality...I'll take my wins in small doses.
My wireless internet is working from home...and I am not sitting in Panera.
It snowed...it was only a little bit, but the dusting we got was so cute.
I am so glad that all of my dreams are coming true.
I even had a pizza last night...reminded me of college, $5 domino pizzas from the guy walking through the dorm...ahh memories. Plus it was delicious.
I have stumbled upon some great blogs...and ya'll keep me cracking up laughing.
My neighbor's baby is sooo cute. She was laughing for no damn reason. Adorable.
I sold the cutest purse this weekend....that really made me feel good.
I had a lot of insight about my neighbors...I didn't like them at first...but now...they are okay.
I have love, joy, prosperity, gratitude, and God. This is a great life!
Gas prices are down. I can put $10 in and it's more than a quarter of a tank.
I made some money this weekend.
I met some great people.
My mom and I are really getting along. I mean, even talking about politics has been a breeze...just not sexuality...I'll take my wins in small doses.
My wireless internet is working from home...and I am not sitting in Panera.
It snowed...it was only a little bit, but the dusting we got was so cute.
I am so glad that all of my dreams are coming true.
I even had a pizza last night...reminded me of college, $5 domino pizzas from the guy walking through the dorm...ahh memories. Plus it was delicious.
I have stumbled upon some great blogs...and ya'll keep me cracking up laughing.
My neighbor's baby is sooo cute. She was laughing for no damn reason. Adorable.
I sold the cutest purse this weekend....that really made me feel good.
I had a lot of insight about my neighbors...I didn't like them at first...but now...they are okay.
I have love, joy, prosperity, gratitude, and God. This is a great life!
Wednesday, November 12, 2008
Why? Why me?
Growing up, I went to church pretty regularly. I was in the youth choir, went to Sunday school, very active in the youth department, girl scouts, and all of that good stuff. I was even in the gospel choir at school. The only times I missed services were graduation night, prom night, grad night celebration at Disney World, and if I was out of town or spending the night with someone who didn’t go to church. Essentially, church and God were a big part of my life. A lot of times in church, I tried to follow along, but I just didn’t get what the pastor was saying.
I stopped going to church sophomore or junior year of college. It was so different. Churches here are huge. They have different customs from what I was used to. Why did they send me tithing envelopes and I wasn’t even a member of the church? Why did they require that you attend new member orientation? What in the heck was an overflow room? (I really want to say why come.) Why was it a requirement to only date members of the church? Why do people “catch the spirit” on cue? Why are you asking people to put $10000 in the offering plate? What happened to just giving what you want to give? Then all of a sudden, every time you turned around someone was gay bashing. I am only actually describing 6 churches out of over 900. But they definitely put a bad taste in my mouth.
This year, I finally visited a church where I truly enjoy the service. It reminded me of my home church. They even have the same color scheme. It is about the same size. I especially love it because every time I go, the message seems to be specially tailored to my feelings, thoughts, and situations. I have been practicing not just listening to the message on that day, but also reflecting on the message and integrating it into my everyday life. I have been going through some “trials and tribulations” but I couldn’t figure out why. For a very long time, I have been seeking acceptance from people I shouldn’t have had to seek it from. Maya Angelou says, “People show you who they are, the first time. It is up to you to listen.” You would be amazed at the things I have done because I didn’t listen to people the first time they showed their tail with me. It made me really unhappy. Why me though? What was the lesson I was supposed to be learning?
Psalm 91: 1-2 (NKJV)
He who dwells in the secret place of the Most High
Shall abide under the shadow of the Almighty.
I will say of the Lord, “He is my refuge and my fortress;
my God in him I will trust”.
I need to trust God. I only have to trust God. I have to relinquish my control over to him and trust that he orders my steps appropriately. All of the stuff I have been doing was in vain because it was aggressive, not producing the desired results, and not done in consultation with my higher power. The self was taking over…the scared gay girl who seeks financial security, but loves being creative let fear step in instead of God and had me working overtime in my head, instead of my heart. And although He did allow earthly parents to bring us here, we are His children.
Psalm 121: 1-2(NKJV)
I will lift up my eyes to the hills-
From whence comes my help?
My help comes from the Lord,
Who made heaven and earth.
My lesson: Instead of running to people, run to God.
I stopped going to church sophomore or junior year of college. It was so different. Churches here are huge. They have different customs from what I was used to. Why did they send me tithing envelopes and I wasn’t even a member of the church? Why did they require that you attend new member orientation? What in the heck was an overflow room? (I really want to say why come.) Why was it a requirement to only date members of the church? Why do people “catch the spirit” on cue? Why are you asking people to put $10000 in the offering plate? What happened to just giving what you want to give? Then all of a sudden, every time you turned around someone was gay bashing. I am only actually describing 6 churches out of over 900. But they definitely put a bad taste in my mouth.
This year, I finally visited a church where I truly enjoy the service. It reminded me of my home church. They even have the same color scheme. It is about the same size. I especially love it because every time I go, the message seems to be specially tailored to my feelings, thoughts, and situations. I have been practicing not just listening to the message on that day, but also reflecting on the message and integrating it into my everyday life. I have been going through some “trials and tribulations” but I couldn’t figure out why. For a very long time, I have been seeking acceptance from people I shouldn’t have had to seek it from. Maya Angelou says, “People show you who they are, the first time. It is up to you to listen.” You would be amazed at the things I have done because I didn’t listen to people the first time they showed their tail with me. It made me really unhappy. Why me though? What was the lesson I was supposed to be learning?
Psalm 91: 1-2 (NKJV)
He who dwells in the secret place of the Most High
Shall abide under the shadow of the Almighty.
I will say of the Lord, “He is my refuge and my fortress;
my God in him I will trust”.
I need to trust God. I only have to trust God. I have to relinquish my control over to him and trust that he orders my steps appropriately. All of the stuff I have been doing was in vain because it was aggressive, not producing the desired results, and not done in consultation with my higher power. The self was taking over…the scared gay girl who seeks financial security, but loves being creative let fear step in instead of God and had me working overtime in my head, instead of my heart. And although He did allow earthly parents to bring us here, we are His children.
Psalm 121: 1-2(NKJV)
I will lift up my eyes to the hills-
From whence comes my help?
My help comes from the Lord,
Who made heaven and earth.
My lesson: Instead of running to people, run to God.
Monday, November 10, 2008
Slow Down....
I am going to:
relax more
not be so high strung
enjoy life
read other peoples blogs more often, not just the ones currently on my list
cook more ( i made ramen noodles with green peas the other day)
look at more comedy sitcoms
laugh at least 5 times a day
basically, take a chill pill.
relax more
not be so high strung
enjoy life
read other peoples blogs more often, not just the ones currently on my list
cook more ( i made ramen noodles with green peas the other day)
look at more comedy sitcoms
laugh at least 5 times a day
basically, take a chill pill.
Feeling joy...again.
"Whether it's a trophy, money, relationships, or things, the achievement of anything that you desire must be considered success. Bu if you will let your standard of success be your achievement of joy, everything else will then fall easily into place."
The Law of Attraction Cards (The Teachings of Abraham)
by Esther and Jerry Hicks
card 32
The Law of Attraction Cards (The Teachings of Abraham)
by Esther and Jerry Hicks
card 32
Sunday, November 2, 2008
Parents Just Don't Understand
One of my favorite authors, Kyra Davis, wrote a blog recently that struck me so hard==right in the gut. Read this excerpt:
"The biggest surprise for most parents is that their kid isn’t who they expected him to be....The only problem is that perspective parents don’t know who that other human being is yet... But when our kid engages in behavior we believe is unseemly it’s a whole ‘nother ballgame. Yes, it’s still their life but we gave them that life. (I laughed out loud here...can't you here your mom saying that) It’s inevitable that they’ll inherit some of our physical features but we also want to make sure they inherent our values and priorities."
This was written about her relationship with her child and centered mostly around her love for Halloween and his apparent apathy (right word?). But what she says is true in so many instances. I applaud her for being able to articulate what I have felt for so long in a way that I could not ignore. Parents have certain expectations sometimes before the kids are even born and they do not know how to let their child be an individual, with likes and dislikes all their own.
"The biggest surprise for most parents is that their kid isn’t who they expected him to be....The only problem is that perspective parents don’t know who that other human being is yet... But when our kid engages in behavior we believe is unseemly it’s a whole ‘nother ballgame. Yes, it’s still their life but we gave them that life. (I laughed out loud here...can't you here your mom saying that) It’s inevitable that they’ll inherit some of our physical features but we also want to make sure they inherent our values and priorities."
This was written about her relationship with her child and centered mostly around her love for Halloween and his apparent apathy (right word?). But what she says is true in so many instances. I applaud her for being able to articulate what I have felt for so long in a way that I could not ignore. Parents have certain expectations sometimes before the kids are even born and they do not know how to let their child be an individual, with likes and dislikes all their own.
Monday, October 27, 2008
Sometimes.... I feel....
like a motherless child. Now this statement is so not true. But it seems every morning I wake up with a song in my head. Well maybe it is true in some respect, just not this morning.
I feel a lot better though. Rest. I just needed a little rest--mentally and physically. I have the propensity to overwork myself, but hey when all of my hopes and dreams are invested in something...I tend to get a little crazy stressed and my immune system shuts down.
It was nice and sunny yesterday, so I went to church (great service), took some pictures of the purses (great pictures in natural light versus artificial flash), and watched some movies (Old School & What's the Worst That Could Happen--funny).
We forgot to get the USB cord for the camera, so still no pics uploaded. But that will be remedied soon. BTW I didn't actually write that post on Saturday, I started it on Saturday.
Anyway, I have a busy day ahead, so I will probably post again later tonight. TTYL.
I feel a lot better though. Rest. I just needed a little rest--mentally and physically. I have the propensity to overwork myself, but hey when all of my hopes and dreams are invested in something...I tend to get a little crazy stressed and my immune system shuts down.
It was nice and sunny yesterday, so I went to church (great service), took some pictures of the purses (great pictures in natural light versus artificial flash), and watched some movies (Old School & What's the Worst That Could Happen--funny).
We forgot to get the USB cord for the camera, so still no pics uploaded. But that will be remedied soon. BTW I didn't actually write that post on Saturday, I started it on Saturday.
Anyway, I have a busy day ahead, so I will probably post again later tonight. TTYL.
Monday, October 13, 2008
It's Monday and I'm Still Gay
Hola! Today is a good day. It's Monday. The beginning of a new beginning. I may even cook this week. LOL. I can cook, I just don't...usually. But I suppose I should give my housemates a break. The only things I've cooked in the last month, maybe even two months are ramen noodles, hot dogs and french fries, maybe even fish filets. I know, sad. LOL.
I have finished approximately 4 purses and 1 clutch. I really like the clutch, you saw it right? I am going to make another one of those. I started my store at Etsy. Nothing is up in there right now. But it will be soon.
I love being this independent woman.
I have finished approximately 4 purses and 1 clutch. I really like the clutch, you saw it right? I am going to make another one of those. I started my store at Etsy. Nothing is up in there right now. But it will be soon.
I love being this independent woman.
Monday, September 15, 2008
Things I Like
Writing is my passion. I have spent a lot of years, thinking about becoming a writer and I have finally decided to do just that! If you notice, I try to write every weekday since I started this blog. Tonight, I got online just in the nick of time. Whew! When I win the essay competition I entered last week, you will be able to read all about my obsession.
I have recently become addicted to hummus. The first time I tried it was at a conference where all that was served was greek food. It looked more appealing than the grape leaves, now I am hooked. Your local grocery store will have a decent brand. I actually even like Walmart's brand (It's less than $2 for about 8 ounces). Paired with the hummus are bagel chips or crackers of some sort. Yum
The Science of Getting Rich by Wallace D. Wattles (the book that inspired The Secret) is my absolute favorite book right now. There are a lot of authors that I enjoy (Kyra Davis, Rochelle Alers, Sandra Brown), but Wallace is phenomenal. Books that are older fascinate me with their relevancy. Do you want a copy? I have a few extra's, so just let me know.
Lights and Lathers Olive Oil and Honey Intensive Moisturizing Skin Treatment. Loving it!!! This is the ONLY lotion that I can wear all day and not develop dry skin! www.lightsandlathers.com It's $12, but worth every penny. It lasted about 2 months. Yes, I am chronically ashy. I am so ashy, that one day my students thought I had on white tights, and I didn't. I know...sad...so don't tell anyone else. LOL!
I'll tell you more tomorrow night, for I have so much to do before I retire for the evening. Good Night.
I have recently become addicted to hummus. The first time I tried it was at a conference where all that was served was greek food. It looked more appealing than the grape leaves, now I am hooked. Your local grocery store will have a decent brand. I actually even like Walmart's brand (It's less than $2 for about 8 ounces). Paired with the hummus are bagel chips or crackers of some sort. Yum
The Science of Getting Rich by Wallace D. Wattles (the book that inspired The Secret) is my absolute favorite book right now. There are a lot of authors that I enjoy (Kyra Davis, Rochelle Alers, Sandra Brown), but Wallace is phenomenal. Books that are older fascinate me with their relevancy. Do you want a copy? I have a few extra's, so just let me know.
Lights and Lathers Olive Oil and Honey Intensive Moisturizing Skin Treatment. Loving it!!! This is the ONLY lotion that I can wear all day and not develop dry skin! www.lightsandlathers.com It's $12, but worth every penny. It lasted about 2 months. Yes, I am chronically ashy. I am so ashy, that one day my students thought I had on white tights, and I didn't. I know...sad...so don't tell anyone else. LOL!
I'll tell you more tomorrow night, for I have so much to do before I retire for the evening. Good Night.
Tuesday, September 9, 2008
Lighthearted and full of joy!
I did a lot of writing today. So my post is short and sweet. This baby will have you cracking up.
Thursday, September 4, 2008
I had a bad ...whoops I mean good day.
I awoke this morning almost dreading to get up. Unsure of myself and what I was doing by coming out on the internet. I put a blog on MySpace, one from my personal email, and a little ego crept in trying to steal my joy. But once it's out there, it's out. No turning back. That's why I did it in this manner.
I took a few deep breaths, then took notice of the inner peace, a happy dance going on in my soul. Today is not unlike any other day. I got up, went to the bathroom, did some chores, ate breakfast, etc. etc. Feedback has been positive.
In honor of this day and the joy I feel stepping into my whole self, every Thursday is now deemed TRANQUIL THURSDAY. I will relax. I may put up an affirmation or positive quote to help you (and myself) maintain a positive thought process and a little calmness in life to help change your mindset, live free, and live abundantly.
affirmation: I love myself.
positive quote: The mind is never right but when it is at peace within it self.
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