Tuesday, November 24, 2009

My Life Updated

So we finally celebrated that 10 year anniversary (11/18). It was funny because, during the same time period our sewer system had a blockage. That was sooooo gross. But at least this time, we could afford to get it fixed without begging people for money. It feels so good to be financially independent again. Times are good!

For the anniversary, we didn't do much special...accept spend some quality time with one another. On Thursday (the day after) we went to the theater to see Seussical.
I can't say that I was into it at all. It was quite busy and boring. Horton Hears A Who is more likeable. I think if I hadn't seen the movie, I may have liked the play a little more.

I am also actively writing my first piece of fiction. I don't remember the last time I wrote fiction. Let's just say, it has been a very long time; probably 13 years. But this novel is at the focal point of my life. It is something that I have to do. I completed my overall story outline, my chapter outline, and now I am working on my scenes. I want it to be a page-turner.

We have a writing circle that we attend 2x's a month. It is always relevant and keeps my creative juices flowing. I enjoy those evenings so much. We usually meet at someone's house or a coffee shop. Maybe I will suggest Barnes and Noble for next time. They have more seating room.

I spend a lot of time at the library now. I have read so many books. But I have also put down a lot of books. If I can't get into it...I don't even waste my time anymore. If I read the end, and it is juicy-- then I will turn back and read from where I left off. I especially do this if I can't find the climax point in the story. That's really good-- a book shouldn't be that predictable. So yea, a lot of reading in my schedule.

What else?

Well, my family and friends are fine. Oh, we are planning to get married in 2011. If the US doesn't have federal marriage rights available to us, we are going to Canada. I don't want to get married in some place that picks and chooses if I am equal depending on the day. Well, really, we chose Canada already--but I suspect, if the US gets its act together, we would stay here and get married. IDK. Only time will tell.

While I was in Florida, I did get to connect with some old friends. It was fun. But I don't want to be in the sunshine state for that long. Honestly, I don't need month long vacations. A couple of days are all I need: travel on Thursday, relax on Friday and Saturday, and come back on Sunday.I am good too go.

Well that's all for now. If I think of something else...I will let you know.

Loved It

The AMA's made me a fan of Lady GaGa (is that how you spell it?) and Adam Lambert. These two cd's will be bought on black friday.
So proud that he came out and gave an authentic performance. Loved it.
And LG-- never been into (MTV VMA's didn't turn me on either), but performance was intense--loved it.
Shakira also sparked my interest. The whole stepping and all the sisters represented in that performance- Lovely. going to be doing that pelvic thrust as part of my workout.
Mary J. Blige never disappoints.
Will be buying Janet's #1's cd. That woman has some hits.
Sad that J.Lo fell-- but still enjoyed the song. Thought it was cute how she changed the shoes at the end.

More into fashion these days-- totally unexpected outfits.
Rihanna- not what I would have chosen, if I were her stylist; but it was cute in its own way.

P.S. too sleepy for any other adjective...so love has to do. Ciao!

Thursday, November 12, 2009

Boomerang

The more I try to focus on other aspects of my personality in friendly relationships, the more my sexuality rears its head.

I met some new people at an artists meeting and I didn't disclose my "status". I know it sounds like a disease, but I just don't think it is anyone's business. If you tell someone you are gay, most of the time they don't think about relationship they think about sex...And I don't want people thinking about what I do in the bedroom with my girlfriend...You know this already---so just humor me for a minute.

We got invited to go to church and I accepted the invitation because it was "Family & Friends Day". That means there was special seating and food after the service. As a member of the "Gone Big Girls" Society since college and being cheap...I have never passed up the opportunity for anything free...food, or otherwise. Plus, I hadn't been able to go to the church, in which I am a member, for some time now--a little worship was needed.

Upon walking in the service and seeing the message of the day, something like: Marriage: Whatever happened to God's original plan, I got that "Oh no" feeling. Then I opened the program and the "Responsive Reading" was a poem. The line "Homosexuality is still a sin" immediately caught my eye. I tried to get my girlfriends attention. She sat one row in front of me. We eventually looked and gave each other "that look".

Evenstill, I was curious about this experience...as I have never been in that sermon where homosexuality is so vehemently despised. It was sad to say the least. It made me even more grateful for my relationship with such a loving God. One who isn't so vengent and allows me to make my own decisions and gives me the wisdom to make choices about love not ruled by fear.

I decided then that "free" would not be a good enough reason to do anything anymore. That delicious plate of food cost me something that no one should ever have to pay. If I hadn't worked on my relationship with God long ago, I could only imagine how the day would have turned out. On the contrary, I didn't feel bad for not saying the responsive reading or yelling "amen" or "thank you Jesus" every five minutes. I simply observed these people who all claimed to be loving Christians talk so ugly about people. Even the songs were depressing: "The rapture is coming very soon..."

The biggest lesson I learned was that I joined the congregation I joined for a reason and I need to get my hindpots back over there. I miss the uplifting singing, moments of laughter (the pastor thinks he is a comedian), and all around joyous time I have praising and thanking God for all the many blessings bestowed upon me.

Upon returning home, all I could think was "WOW."