Monday, September 29, 2008

How are you?

I am blessed and highly favored! I didn't get to church yesterday (overslept). I did start a new purse, I will finish it later on today. Just the last whipstitch. This cold weather has me just wanting to cuddle up to something warm with that hot chocolate I never got on Saturday (I did have tea--good tea with Lele). I don't have anything to talk about. Has that ever happened to you? I mean I am mouth almighty sometimes...but not today. I have so much to do. We are re-launching our webpage on Wednesday (www.deuxdames.com) So I just wanted to say hello. See how you are doing. And you can comment on my page by clicking on comments at the end of each post. I know it's tiny. But hey, it's free...I'm not complaining.

Ya'll, I almost forgot. I am 97% back into some pants I haven't worn since 2005. yea me! They are up and fit comfortably through the leg, it's the buttons fault--to far over lol. have a great night

Saturday, September 27, 2008

Pride Events

Hello friends,

This weekend is Pride2008 in Durham. I have gone before, but not this weekend--it's rainy, wet, blah! I just want to stay inside curled up with a good book next to my boo, drinking hot chocolate or tea. lol.

If you have never been to a pride event I must implore you to go to at least one!!!!Even if you are straight, I believe you will have a good time. They are all different! I have attended Durham's pride and Charlotte NC Black Gay Pride, and that's it. Now I could compare the two, but honestly there's no comparison!

People sometimes say, why do you have to have a black pride, isn't it perpetuating the differences between the two races? I say, it's not about race, it's about culture. The one thing I can say about going to the black pride is that I really enjoyed it when they had a movie festival (some of the best african-american lgbt short films around), poetry reading (my friend wanted to throw her hat it was so good), a fierce fashion show (that same friend had models flirting with her all night), and Angela Harvey telling it like it is! I met Laurinda Brown before her books were filling up space on Barnes and Noble bookshelves. I met a lot of people, danced my ass off, and kept a few people from trying to go home with my girl(that old lady).

The feeling of belonging, comfort, fun, joy, happiness, and seeing people like yourself was amazing. Now everyone is different, so you may feel a little uneasy at first, but everyone there is gay or gay friendly! You aren't going to be hurled out on the street if you aren't rocking a fitted baseball cap and timberland boots (LOL). Everyone is not dressed like that. You had a variety of crowds (gay boi's, strippers, artists, writers, mortgage brokers, social justice non-profits, hair stylists, make-up artists, health professionals, crafters, and so much more.) I had my most recent HIV test there. It was so easy and quick. (Get tested!) I am just remembering all of the fun times I had at Pride. I may not make it this year, but I want you to enjoy yourself. Stop reading this. Get out there and enjoy life.

Monday, September 15, 2008

Things I Like

Writing is my passion. I have spent a lot of years, thinking about becoming a writer and I have finally decided to do just that! If you notice, I try to write every weekday since I started this blog. Tonight, I got online just in the nick of time. Whew! When I win the essay competition I entered last week, you will be able to read all about my obsession.

I have recently become addicted to hummus. The first time I tried it was at a conference where all that was served was greek food. It looked more appealing than the grape leaves, now I am hooked. Your local grocery store will have a decent brand. I actually even like Walmart's brand (It's less than $2 for about 8 ounces). Paired with the hummus are bagel chips or crackers of some sort. Yum

The Science of Getting Rich by Wallace D. Wattles (the book that inspired The Secret) is my absolute favorite book right now. There are a lot of authors that I enjoy (Kyra Davis, Rochelle Alers, Sandra Brown), but Wallace is phenomenal. Books that are older fascinate me with their relevancy. Do you want a copy? I have a few extra's, so just let me know.

Lights and Lathers Olive Oil and Honey Intensive Moisturizing Skin Treatment. Loving it!!! This is the ONLY lotion that I can wear all day and not develop dry skin! www.lightsandlathers.com It's $12, but worth every penny. It lasted about 2 months. Yes, I am chronically ashy. I am so ashy, that one day my students thought I had on white tights, and I didn't. I know...sad...so don't tell anyone else. LOL!

I'll tell you more tomorrow night, for I have so much to do before I retire for the evening. Good Night.

Friday, September 12, 2008

Cake, chocolate, and more cake!


Today I had the most delicious piece of chocolate cake. I wanted to eat the whole cake, but I didn't. Just a slice. That is a good representation of what the cake looked like. I am addicted to sweets. It is easier to just not eat the sweets. I guess I can describe it as a drug. Once you go through withdrawal--it is easy for me to pass it by. But as soon as I get a taste, I want more and more of it. But I have a really good substitution.
Mocha Cups
(makes 8 small servings - be sure to share with friends!)
3 cups nonfat milk
1 (1.4-ounce) packet sugar-free, fat-free chocolate pudding
1 tablespoon instant espresso
8 teaspoons whipped topping
Cocoa powder, for garnish

In a medium mixing bowl, whisk together the milk, chocolate pudding mix, and the instant espresso. Use hand mixer to mix ingredients. Spoon or pipe mocha pudding into cups and top with a 1 tablespoon dollop of whipped topping. Sprinkle with cocoa powder.
I know it isn't cake, but it definitely will curb that chocolate craving and keep that figure in tact or help trim it down. Talk to you next week!

Tuesday, September 9, 2008

Monday, September 8, 2008

It's all about the sex....

I think about sex maybe every 12 seconds. I am like a guy. I see a girl and immediately I think about how long it would take for her to have an orgasm. I am hypersexual. I obviously have sex 3-4 times a day. The gays can get anyone they want. Myself included. I don't have to think about who I want to have sex with. No emotional connection whatsoever is needed. Just a warm body, because you know they have to be alive. Lesbians like live people. When gays and lesbians argue about gay marriage, they really just want permission to have sex, so there is no need to have legal protection, no need for it to be the law of the land.

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Okay, let me stop with the sarcasm before some idiot takes my ranting seriously. Sex for this girl is as important as sex is for anyone else. Wait a minute, now this is interesting. Maybe sex is more important to other people than it is to me, hmm.

That's an interesting thought; considering, I don't think about sex all the time. Me being a lesbian is not about sex. For me, being a lesbian is about LOVE. That's right LOVE. I don't go around hunting down conquests. I genuinely love the person I am with. It didn't happen one drunken night at a bar. It took us damn near 5 years to acknowledge our feelings for one another. We had relationships with guys during that time frame, trying to make our feelings go away. So for those who thought you knew, I told you that you didn't. As a matter of fact, my theory about SOME promiscuous homosexual people is they want a relationship too. But SOCIETY (yes--you big elephants) makes them feel so bad about themselves, that they settle for sexual encounters to keep their sanity. This is supported by the number of gay and lesbians becoming couples, having families, etc. Because it is available to us now, this is what we want. 50 years ago, the idea of a homosexual couple raising a family was not available mainstream, therefore it was harder to find. I know they existed though.

But let's get back to love. Love doesn't call you names. Love isn't mean to you. Love doesn't yell at you for any reason. Love comforts. Love soothes. Love caresses. Love doesn't have unrealistic expectations. Love heals. Love wraps their arm around you and gives you a kiss on the cheek when I get home. Love listens. At least my love does. My love talks to me in the middle of the night about nothing. Love encourages me to follow my dreams. Love has loved me ever since the day I was born. Love will continue to love me until my soul passes over to the other realm.

1 John 4: 8
8 He that loveth not, knoweth not God; for God is love.

Do you love like that? That all encompassing no matter what love? I tell you, it's not about the sex.

Friday, September 5, 2008

Foodie Friday

Wow. The Internet is unstoppable. So much has happened over the last few days. The first thing I need to say is Thank You! I suppose this is what it feels like to really relax and feel loved. I created this blog out of the need to get stuff off my chest quickly, efficiently, and succinctly. But I would really like this to evolve into a place where people can come, not just to learn about me as a whole person, but also to gain knowledge. I have a lot to share. Friday's will now be FOODIE Friday. I will sometimes post a recipe, give you a healthy eating tip, or maybe even a restaurant review.

The suppression of myself has caused many disorders including but not limited to a) bouts of depression ( I don't know that they were directly related, but at times my grades, relationships, and responsibilities have suffered, and I know I am not the only one) and b) overeating (now I genuinely LOVE food, but I do go overboard sometimes, but food has never let me down or told me I was going to hell.)

I have started to adopt some healthier habits. For instance tonight, instead of us ordering a large pizza with 3 toppings at regular price and 99 cent cheese bread from Papa John's, we each opted for the personal pan pizza. Not only did it save us 30% of the price, but everyone gets the toppings of their choice, your portion sizes are a little bit closer to what you should be eating, and you actually get full. So instead of eating 4 large slices of pizza, you have 4 mini slices of pizza. For me, that is a step into the right direction. Eventually, I will be one of those eating a personal size thin crust veggie pizza, but I am not there yet.

How's that for being a regular person? LOL. What food habits are you willing to change?

Thursday, September 4, 2008

I had a bad ...whoops I mean good day.

I awoke this morning almost dreading to get up. Unsure of myself and what I was doing by coming out on the internet. I put a blog on MySpace, one from my personal email, and a little ego crept in trying to steal my joy. But once it's out there, it's out. No turning back. That's why I did it in this manner.

I took a few deep breaths, then took notice of the inner peace, a happy dance going on in my soul. Today is not unlike any other day. I got up, went to the bathroom, did some chores, ate breakfast, etc. etc. Feedback has been positive.

In honor of this day and the joy I feel stepping into my whole self, every Thursday is now deemed TRANQUIL THURSDAY. I will relax. I may put up an affirmation or positive quote to help you (and myself) maintain a positive thought process and a little calmness in life to help change your mindset, live free, and live abundantly.

affirmation: I love myself.

positive quote: The mind is never right but when it is at peace within it self.