When I started this blog, I was angry with people for not acknowledging my lesbian existence. The incident: I was on the phone while the need to back Florida's Proposition 2 (marriage ammendment) during the 2008 election year was discussed-- because "lesbians are sick" I lost it. I mean the infamous "coming out" arguments were never pretty...and yet people always seemed to forget that I am a lesbian
As a black lesbian who had lived with my girlfriend since 2001, it was mind boggling to say the least. How could I get folk to listen to me? The blog was sent to a few friends and it quickly got forwarded to others. It was inevitable that my childhood best friend would send it to her mom. I was shocked and relieved at the same time. I'm sure my mom has read it...as she got the link as well. But, as I progressed and I started baring my soul...I didn't really want her to read it anymore.
In discussions, I found that this--wanting people to not read the blog-- was a common phenomenon with some blog writers. Throughout this blog, I have simply discussed the nature of myself and all of my inconsistencies. At the moment that the post is written, that is how I feel. Sometimes, I see myself writing in circles--but it is a great way for me to get to the root of my feelings. When I read the previous posts, I am reminded of my purpose and the path from which I have sometimes strayed. I have no agenda except to be unapologetically and utterly me: a loving lesbian of color engaged to another wonderful lesbian of color and wanting to make the world a better place for all of us.