Today, I am observing a day of silence. I read a book by Anne Leclaire about meditation and silence this weekend. The only restriction for today is that I cannot speak. It was supposed to be 6 am to 6 am, but I forgot and asked my gf what time it was this morning. It's amazing how easy I forgot. I debated if I would continue and I decided to just roll with it. I changed the time to 10:30 am - 10:30 am. It's actually been pretty hard so far...I'll let you know how it goes.
Love,
Tamara
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Tuesday, June 2, 2009
Monday, March 2, 2009
Lessons Learned 2008-2009
Time is a great buffer. I have learned more lessons now than even the ones I thought I had learned at the beginning of the year. Here they are:
1. A dream won't come true if you don't a) really want it; b) believe it will come true; and c) put in the work to make it happen.
2. I write down my hopes, wishes, and desires. I took a look back over the last year and realized that it was a whole bunch of stuff that I thought I wanted that I could totally care less about.
For instance, I thought I wanted to keep my car for the rest of my life. It was going to be that junker that I drove anywhere I could. I put way too much money into trying to keep it running; all the while planning the next car I would buy. That was a contradiction. I should have let the car go a long time ago and bought the one I really wanted.
3. I also learned that it is totally okay to go against the norm. You would think I learned this lesson a long time ago but clearly I didn't. I spent a lot of time, money, and energy looking for a traditional job. And then God blesses me with a non-traditional job when that's what I wanted all along. LOL. So funny.
And finally I learned that God and the universe will provide all of my true wants, needs, and desires-the ones that I don't contradict myself on. And one that won't make much sense because there is so much that is behind it, but I don't have to control anything but my mind.
1. A dream won't come true if you don't a) really want it; b) believe it will come true; and c) put in the work to make it happen.
2. I write down my hopes, wishes, and desires. I took a look back over the last year and realized that it was a whole bunch of stuff that I thought I wanted that I could totally care less about.
For instance, I thought I wanted to keep my car for the rest of my life. It was going to be that junker that I drove anywhere I could. I put way too much money into trying to keep it running; all the while planning the next car I would buy. That was a contradiction. I should have let the car go a long time ago and bought the one I really wanted.
3. I also learned that it is totally okay to go against the norm. You would think I learned this lesson a long time ago but clearly I didn't. I spent a lot of time, money, and energy looking for a traditional job. And then God blesses me with a non-traditional job when that's what I wanted all along. LOL. So funny.
And finally I learned that God and the universe will provide all of my true wants, needs, and desires-the ones that I don't contradict myself on. And one that won't make much sense because there is so much that is behind it, but I don't have to control anything but my mind.
Saturday, December 20, 2008
No More Drama
Yeah, Mary J Blige. I love her. If you look at her career, it's been a ride. If she hadn't told us what she was going through, we probably wouldn't have ever known. I was thinking, wow she has truly grown up. I mean she says she had some toxic people around her and toxic behaviors abounded. She eliminitated the toxins from her life and look at her now. I mean she probably still has issues right? Everyone does.
But what is important is how she looks at her life now. She's happy for the little things and the big things.
So that's basically what I have been doing through the gratitude posts: eliminating toxins from my life. If you look at this blog in the beginning until now...I have grown. You may not be able to see that, but I have. Trying to figure out what to write about is one thing, but dealing with other people's emotions is quite another. So I had to let some people go and realize that it's not always about me!
When people say silly s&*t it is about them and their insecurities. People who have issues with gay marriage have an issue with their marriage or the lack thereof. When your parents nag you about your life or your friends criticize it's because they don't like what is going on with them. I was sitting here reading other people's blogs and realized that we are all going through the same sh*t...and for what? Like my family always had something to say about my hair. Why? Because there hair wasn't as long as mine, as thick as mine, and they wanted hair just like mine in it's relaxed state. But I am cool without a relaxer, so I will remain natural.
Our emotions can only be toyed with if we allow it. I am tired of playing games and feeding into other people's insecurities. Screw 'em. If somebody doesn't like what you do or say, Screw 'em. If they don't like who you are sleeping with this week, screw them too! If your life doesn't fit there little playbook...tell em ... that's right screw you...I really want to say the F word...but I am trying to eliminate it from my vocabulary.
2008 is coming to an end and it is high time to decide to live your life for you. Stop getting caught up in this everyday drama from the outside sources (news, other people, etc.). Have you made your "easy life" to-do list for 2009-2013, not a resolution...they never get done, but how about a 4 year plan?
But what is important is how she looks at her life now. She's happy for the little things and the big things.
So that's basically what I have been doing through the gratitude posts: eliminating toxins from my life. If you look at this blog in the beginning until now...I have grown. You may not be able to see that, but I have. Trying to figure out what to write about is one thing, but dealing with other people's emotions is quite another. So I had to let some people go and realize that it's not always about me!
When people say silly s&*t it is about them and their insecurities. People who have issues with gay marriage have an issue with their marriage or the lack thereof. When your parents nag you about your life or your friends criticize it's because they don't like what is going on with them. I was sitting here reading other people's blogs and realized that we are all going through the same sh*t...and for what? Like my family always had something to say about my hair. Why? Because there hair wasn't as long as mine, as thick as mine, and they wanted hair just like mine in it's relaxed state. But I am cool without a relaxer, so I will remain natural.
Our emotions can only be toyed with if we allow it. I am tired of playing games and feeding into other people's insecurities. Screw 'em. If somebody doesn't like what you do or say, Screw 'em. If they don't like who you are sleeping with this week, screw them too! If your life doesn't fit there little playbook...tell em ... that's right screw you...I really want to say the F word...but I am trying to eliminate it from my vocabulary.
2008 is coming to an end and it is high time to decide to live your life for you. Stop getting caught up in this everyday drama from the outside sources (news, other people, etc.). Have you made your "easy life" to-do list for 2009-2013, not a resolution...they never get done, but how about a 4 year plan?
Saturday, November 29, 2008
I'm so grateful...
that I have you all to talk too. I mean my life has changed so much in the last few days.
that Thanksgiving dinner was better than expected. I had some banging sweet potatoe pie...and I am still full. I don't really need to eat for the next few days. Seriously.
that unexpected miracles keep happening. I am just going with the flow of this prosperity and abundance. I am so so grateful...I will blog about these as they develop further.
that I have great friends, great family, and serve a great God.
that it has been warm for the last few days. No super duper cold for the holiday...Yeah!
that I have dreams...that no one can take from me, that I know I will accomplish.
that Thanksgiving dinner was better than expected. I had some banging sweet potatoe pie...and I am still full. I don't really need to eat for the next few days. Seriously.
that unexpected miracles keep happening. I am just going with the flow of this prosperity and abundance. I am so so grateful...I will blog about these as they develop further.
that I have great friends, great family, and serve a great God.
that it has been warm for the last few days. No super duper cold for the holiday...Yeah!
that I have dreams...that no one can take from me, that I know I will accomplish.
Saturday, November 22, 2008
$10,000 a day....
Why do people hate on people with money? I see a lot of hating especially with The Real Housewives of Atlanta cast, these corporate moguls, and others. The media went out of control about the automaker ceo's riding in a private jet to DC.
I am being completely honest when I say, when I become a millionaire, I will be traveling on a private jet. I will not look down on someone who can't fly on a private jet, and I won't feel guilty for flying on a private jet. I look at Kimmora, Oprah, Bill (Gates) and I see a life that I want (somewhat...some of the stuff that they go through is extreme) but the ease of knowing that what you want, you can have because money is no object is freeing.
A friend sent me this game called The Prosperity Game. Essentially, they give you money and you are to do whatever you want with it. So the first day is $100. If someone gave you a $100 a day for the next 30 days what would you do with it? I would go out to dinner with the first $100 dollars. Put me in the right frame of mind of enjoying this money. There is nothing worse then getting money and not enjoying it. Like if you got the $100 and you felt bad because you had to pay a bill. It's not the paying the bill that makes it bad...but the feeling...so I am doing something I want to do first, then I will do what I have to do. Does that make since?
I saw somewhere else where people have set up different amounts. I am going with $10,000. So if you were given $10,000 a day for 30 days what would you do with the money?
I am being completely honest when I say, when I become a millionaire, I will be traveling on a private jet. I will not look down on someone who can't fly on a private jet, and I won't feel guilty for flying on a private jet. I look at Kimmora, Oprah, Bill (Gates) and I see a life that I want (somewhat...some of the stuff that they go through is extreme) but the ease of knowing that what you want, you can have because money is no object is freeing.
A friend sent me this game called The Prosperity Game. Essentially, they give you money and you are to do whatever you want with it. So the first day is $100. If someone gave you a $100 a day for the next 30 days what would you do with it? I would go out to dinner with the first $100 dollars. Put me in the right frame of mind of enjoying this money. There is nothing worse then getting money and not enjoying it. Like if you got the $100 and you felt bad because you had to pay a bill. It's not the paying the bill that makes it bad...but the feeling...so I am doing something I want to do first, then I will do what I have to do. Does that make since?
I saw somewhere else where people have set up different amounts. I am going with $10,000. So if you were given $10,000 a day for 30 days what would you do with the money?
Tuesday, October 21, 2008
Hip Hop Hoorayyy!
I watched the Hip Hop Honors the other night, so that song is stuck in my head. It was one of my favorite songs back in the day--so I don't mind.
But yesterday was a grand day. I hit up the stores looking for embellishments for the clutches, totes, and purses. I was inundated with $4 jewels. I realized then that is why purses cost so darn much. A little round thinga-ma-jig, just one-for $4. No thank you. And to top it all off, they weren't even that cute. So we(my love and I) decided to hit up the thrift stores and honey did we hit the jackpot! Gorgeous vintage buttons and earrings (in great condition) that will take these clutches to the next level. This literally means that no two purses will ever be alike. I like the fact that each one will be its own little jewel.
Then a digital camera...not a camera phone has manifested itself for me today. So today, I will be playing photographer. It is a hobby that I have enjoyed since my yearbook staff days in high school. I love black and white photographs. A past co-worker was actually able to buy a old-school polaroid black and white camera for $5 on Ebay. I met no such luck-the guy tried to skip off with my $20. I got it back though, so no harm done. With all of that said, that means new-better pictures will be up this week. Heeyyyy! LOL.
I finally feel like I am on the right track. The website is steadily coming along and evolving into a masterpiece in and of itself (www.deuxdames.com). Each time I make a clutch or tote, they look better than the one before. I am just so excited that everything I need is literally falling into my hands.
Well a busy day is ahead, I hope your dreams come true.
But yesterday was a grand day. I hit up the stores looking for embellishments for the clutches, totes, and purses. I was inundated with $4 jewels. I realized then that is why purses cost so darn much. A little round thinga-ma-jig, just one-for $4. No thank you. And to top it all off, they weren't even that cute. So we(my love and I) decided to hit up the thrift stores and honey did we hit the jackpot! Gorgeous vintage buttons and earrings (in great condition) that will take these clutches to the next level. This literally means that no two purses will ever be alike. I like the fact that each one will be its own little jewel.
Then a digital camera...not a camera phone has manifested itself for me today. So today, I will be playing photographer. It is a hobby that I have enjoyed since my yearbook staff days in high school. I love black and white photographs. A past co-worker was actually able to buy a old-school polaroid black and white camera for $5 on Ebay. I met no such luck-the guy tried to skip off with my $20. I got it back though, so no harm done. With all of that said, that means new-better pictures will be up this week. Heeyyyy! LOL.
I finally feel like I am on the right track. The website is steadily coming along and evolving into a masterpiece in and of itself (www.deuxdames.com). Each time I make a clutch or tote, they look better than the one before. I am just so excited that everything I need is literally falling into my hands.
Well a busy day is ahead, I hope your dreams come true.
Monday, October 13, 2008
What's Right With My Life?
I feel the urge to people bash, but I won't. It is a lot wrong with the world and with a lot of the people in it, but at this very moment, I am choosing to focus on what is RIGHT and GOOD! Doing this allows me to counteract the negative energy seeping from my pores.
First--I didn't cook today. The sloppy joes we had were delicious though. No one is complaining.
Second-- I received some money today! YAY! Much needed and much appreciated from... my mommy :-)
Our relationship has gotten so much better. I began to focus on what I wanted our relationship to be like, instead of what it actually was at the time. We talk about a lot of stuff...especially sewing. The positive thinking works. It really does.
A month ago, I was ready to chant Kelis's I HATE YOU SO MUCH RIGHT NOW...and now I am really relaxing and enjoying our relationship. I actually call my mom at least 2-3 times a week versus the 2-3 times a quarter. It feels good.
First--I didn't cook today. The sloppy joes we had were delicious though. No one is complaining.
Second-- I received some money today! YAY! Much needed and much appreciated from... my mommy :-)
Our relationship has gotten so much better. I began to focus on what I wanted our relationship to be like, instead of what it actually was at the time. We talk about a lot of stuff...especially sewing. The positive thinking works. It really does.
A month ago, I was ready to chant Kelis's I HATE YOU SO MUCH RIGHT NOW...and now I am really relaxing and enjoying our relationship. I actually call my mom at least 2-3 times a week versus the 2-3 times a quarter. It feels good.
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